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Hi I’m Over Here!

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For anybody new here….welcome! Please have a wander round the site and check out my previous posts, there’s plenty to read. There is also a food page, yes we gotta eat! And a page introducing you to smell training, although some of you may already be aware of this, or even practicing it, which is great!

I originally started my Blog as a way to get out all of my frustration and anger when I acquired Anosmia resulting from a head injury, and it’s gone from there. As you will see from my older posts I was very emotional and negative at first, which was understandable at the time.  However its been 19 months now so I’ve made myself move on and am learning to live positively again.

So much so that I now have an online Facebook group called ‘Living Well With Anosmia’ which is growing rapidly. I created this group to address how to live positively with Anosmia, Parosmia and other smell related disorders. It is very difficult to cope with this little known and life changing condition. I still struggle with it myself sometimes. But I am now at the point where I want to move on with my life….start enjoying it again and at the same time help others who have this life changing condition to start leading a fulfilling and positive life, and offer support and guidance at the same time. I am very happy to say that it is proving to be a popular and helpful group to a lot of people and if you fancy joining yourself, this is the link

The success of this group is a large part of the reason why I decided to develop my blog and move it across to WordPress, building it into a website to help and encourage others.

You never know I might even write a book one day…..so watch this space!

Posted in taste

Food for Thought.

This is a subject I think about a lot, well you cant help it really, eating is something you have to do every day if you want to survive. The problem is, as many of you will know, trying to eat when you have Parosmia, is no easy task.  Its a case of forcing it down your neck as quickly as possible in most cases.

I say in most cases because these days, (after a year and half of this nightmare), some things are now bearable….even pleasurable dare I say it.

If you remember in my last post about smell I said its a case of my interpretation of certain smells being different from the normal now, and I have to recognise these as the new smells of things….have a look at the previous post for more detail

And the same can be said for food also.  It doesn’t taste as it should, but this is now the new taste of certain foods. Think back to my ‘orrible onions post, when I said the taste of onion and garlic was like eating rotten food, if you read it that is! I still anticipate some food to taste as it used to and its very disappointing when it doesn’t, and even worse if it taste vile. That’s Parosmia for you!

 

Well on the other side of that, the taste of milk chocolate for example is sweet and… weird, that’s the problem I cant describe what it tastes like anymore but to me that is now what chocolate tastes like and the main thing is it isn’t horrible.

So now here is a list of my taste interpretation of some everyday foods that we all eat. (or used to in my case!).





Lets start with savoury:

  • Chips – cooking oil
  • Fish – rotten food
  • Eggs – rotten
  • Bacon – salt
  • Cheese – salt and maybe a bit of something else….tartness?
  • Chicken – rotten, unless in a sweet sauce, then bearable
  • Beef – used to be horrible but now pretty tasteless, (I’ll explain about taste shifts at the end).
  • Chilies – no taste, but I get the sensation of heat (which is good as its some kind of association).
  • Garlic – disgusting…rotten to the worst degree.
  • Onion- the same unless well disguised.
  • Food in sauces –
  • Chilli Con Carne – heat and…..thinking here!! savoury, in a nice way but I don’t know what…argh!
  • Curry – horrible unless its sweet, like a Korma as that masks the taste of garlic.
  • Spaghetti Bolognese – tinny, and bitter = not good!
  • Casserole – if its beef and has a lot of gravy, too meaty, rotten.
  • Tuna pasta – rotten as I cant eat tuna anymore.
  • Cauliflower cheese – nice good texture, salty and a bit creamy. I always get a big helping at my mum and dads, he makes great cauliflower cheese….anyway, I digress.
  • Sweet/Puddings –
  • Ice Cream – effect of coldness in the mouth is good, and its sweet. Blackberry Crumble flavour works well due to the texture of the crumble in it, and the tartness of the blackberry.
  • Lemon Meringue Pie – lots of different textures, lemon works well for me as it is tart and sweet overall. (Goes well with ice cream in fact).
  • Cake – good, as its sweet and gooey.
  • Cheesecake – one of those weird indescribable tastes again, and I don’t like the texture, so not very keen.
  • Dark Chocolate – not very nice at all, but again I don’t know how to describe the taste…oh good grief, just nasty!
  • Toffee- mmm, ok still a bit odd tasting but the sweetness masks it a bit, and if its really soft I like the texture.
Tastes shifts –
Sometimes, and it is the case with a lot of people with Parosmia, things taste ok then after a period of time taste horrible. I don’t know why this is but it can be disappointing when you have just started to enjoy something again then it becomes awful to eat. It can be as short as a day or two or over a period of weeks.
The worst for me was eggs as I used to like the different textures in omelettes, however eggs taste bad again, as you will see from my list, so that’s yet another dish to cross off. The same goes with fish it was good, then I started to really dislike the taste and texture….so now another no, no.
On the plus side from bad to good – tomatoes used to have no taste and I hated the texture, but now a sweetness comes through and as long as they aren’t too ripe they are fine.
So there you have it the complex world of Parosmia…..I wouldn’t wish it on anybody, but its a case of adapting and experimenting with different types and combinations of food. Otherwise I’d probably hardly eat anything. Bon appetit! (Not being sarcastic, honest!
 


















Posted in smell

Making Sense of Scents.

A few days ago I was sitting in my sunny front garden contemplating.  My clever husband had just finished building some decking with a lovely balustrade and trestle, as this little area is a suntrap.  I was contemplating because I was trying to decide if I should bother to try and grow a scented climbing plant of some description along it.  Maybe honeysuckle, lilac or a climbing rose? It would look lovely I’m sure but wouldn’t smell of anything to me….but then I think I’m being selfish, other people would enjoy it, like friends and family who often come to visit.  I realise I have to be careful sometimes so as not to become thoughtless about other peoples’ pleasures in life.

I catch myself being like this on occasion and don’t like what I see, a good kick up the arse wouldn’t go amiss right now! So instead I consider what plant to grow on there, I’ll ask my husband Ruck what he thinks too…a joint decision.

My interpretation of the smell of things differs now, the smells I identify with certain things don’t connect anymore. Like I said in my articles on Smell Training, I have to, for example, learn that my smell of grass isn’t the same as your smell of grass, but I need to recognise that as the new smell of grass for me.
Let me give you some examples, unfortunately not all pleasant ones due to my Parosmia, which you know about if you’ve been reading older posts. So here is a short list that I’ve compiled:

  • Perfume – sweet but no distinctive notes to it, i.e. flowery. musky etc.
  • Coffee – Smokey, but not horrible.
  • Tea – no smell.
  • Basil – sweet, no really distinctive smell however.
  • Onions – horrible, one of the worst in fact, sulphur, sulphur and more sulphur.
  • Chicken – rotten kind of smell, not good
  • Pork – nothing at all.
  • Beef – cardboard!
  • Bacon – burnt smell, but not horrible.
  • Sausages – Sulphur, not nice.
  • Smoke – again sulphur, yuk!
  • Grass – earthy, so not too bad.
  • Flowers – most of these I cant smell at all, but I did get a faint smell of lavender once, so I grow it all over my garden. But sadly this seems to have faded now. I wont dismiss the fact that it might return though!
  • Chocolate – no smell
  • Milk – no smell
  • Bread – no smell but if its baking there’s the sulphur back again!
  • Eggs – Ugh!
  • Spices – the odd musky kind of smell.
  • Vanilla – this is one to celebrate as it smells like vanilla, especially the candles!
I’ll end on that one as a positive note or I could go on and on so I wont bore you forever!
Now, as I stop to contemplate again…there is no smell in the air. I’m sitting in my kitchen writing this, and breathing in nothingness. I’ve forgotten what my house used to smell like I suppose, and often check with Ruck that it doesn’t need a good old airing or air freshener spraying all over the place. I sometimes get a smell of something in the air, but cant identify it and have to ask what it is. If I’m outside it often turns out to be chimney smoke or the farm smell, which oddly enough smells ok to me.  We live quite close to a farm so this can be a common occurrence. I do miss smelling things as they should be though and not smelling the things I used to love, but I’m trying to come to terms with this. Not because I’m giving up on things going back to normal but because I’m preparing myself for the fact that they might not. Its a fine balance and I try not to get down about it.
Next time I want to talk about taste with you all, that is a weird one with more unpleasant than pleasant experiences unfortunately, but ill leave it here for now….thanks for reading as always.
To anyone suffering from Anosmia, Parosmia or related do you have good and bad smells? I’d be interested to know your interpretations. Please feel free to comment.

 

Posted in Parosmia

‘Orrible Onions!

Ok not the most exciting of topics but for me a pretty interesting one none the less.

Let’s talk about onions.

Before my Anosmia I liked onions, they are present in so many dishes meaning I cooked with them a lot….our relationship has now changed however. For some reason, once my Parosmia, (distorted/horrible taste), kicked in, onions were unbearable. More so than with any other food, and there were plenty that were pretty bad, I won’t start naming them however as the list will scare you off reading any more of this post!

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But onions are confusing my Parosmia at the moment. All of a sudden they taste bearable in some forms such as shop bought potato salad from Lidl, that contain chives, a member of the onion family. Also in the sweeter type of curry such as Korma or Pasanda, which definitely contain onion. I think it’s the fact that all of these foods have a sweet side to them that is making the difference. Even the potato salad, due to the sweetness of the mayonnaise.
All of this sweetness seems to help counteract, or at least balance out the harsh, horrible taste of onion…and it makes sense to me really as I’ve always been able to manage quite a few different sweet foods even with my Parosmia.  Maybe I’ll try caramelised onion next.

I suppose what I’m trying to say to my fellow sufferers is don’t be afraid to try things, yes its disappointing if it turns out to be horrible, but you can always just pull a silly face and spit it out again, preferably not in public though!
But in all seriousness, I’m really not trying to make light of this awful affliction. Crikey its only in the past couple of months that I’ve started trying things again and some are still disgusting, like garlic in any form at all for example, and even though I’m getting on with onion a bit better, raw onion is a massive no, no! But please try and experiment with different foods my friends, what have you got to lose…..a bit more of your sanity, I lost that ages ago when all of this happened, but I’m slowly getting it back I hope. So be brave, we have to be don’t we, either that or give up and I don’t plan to and you shouldn’t either.

So this post is for all my friends in the three great Facebook Anosmia related groups that I am in.

  • Parosmia/Phantosmia Support Group
  • Aquired Anosmia and Parosmia Support Page
  • Anosmics of the World Unite!
What I would have done without your support goodness only knows.  Also anybody else reading this who is suffering from Anosmia and related disorders, if you are on Facebook I really do encourage you to join these groups and get the support you need and deserve.
Oh and one more thing, yes ok I’m rambling! Anyone without anosmia reading this, (lucky you), I hope this blog is giving you an insight and understanding of this little understood and life changing condition, I’m glad you are making the effort, and taking your time out to read it.
See you all back here next post, unless I’ve offended anyone and been too outspoken. I really want to support everyone like me, but tell me off if you feel the need x
Posted in Anosmia, Parosmia

Getting My Head Write!

First of all, no I didn’t get my grammar wrong in the heading, I just have a scribbly head at the moment. If you looked into my brain it would look like this photograph.

That’s what my writing looks like anyway but my brain is trying to match it! My husband tells me my brain goes a million miles an hour, so how do I calm it?
I’m doing it now, I write, that’s what I do, what I’ve always done I suppose really. Starting with lyrics, cute rhymes in family Birthday cards, this blog and I’ll let you into a little secret, a children’s book which I’m currently working on. Am I good enough? Who knows, but I’m certainly going to give it a try. Is it good for me? Yes. Because I think if I didn’t write it I’d scream it, not such a good idea I suppose, the neighbours wouldn’t be very impressed!

I haven’t written a single line about Anosmia yet because had I not started with the above chatter the rest of this post wouldn’t have made sense…..sense get it, oh dear I’m at it again with the bad jokes. Anyway we’ve been on our holidays to our favourite Greek Island of Kefalonia. The last time I went I didn’t have Anosmia so it was a bit of a shock to the system getting off the plane to blank very hot air.  No smell you see, it used to be a kind of warm olive smell if you can get that…….sort of like heated up grass and leaves and countryside. I loved that smell and I have to admit missed it when it wasn’t there this time, it did make me sad.
I’m pleased to say however that I ate quite well, I learnt how to say “no onions please” in Greek, as you’ll probably remember if you’ve read any of my previous posts, onions make my Parosmia kick in, and taste disgusting. Funnily enough the word onion in Greek is pronounced ‘cremmudia’, (not spelt like that though), which kept making me think of cream which I can eat but not in that case! Being able to have no onion in my food helped though as some savoury food is palatable these days, and the sweet pastries were yum, even to me!

So all in all we had a good time because some things hadn’t changed like the lovely Greek friends we’d made over there and met up with again, or the beautiful scenery, or the guaranteed hot sunshine, the stunning coloured butterflies, the warm emerald sea, there I feel better already.

Life is still a challenge, and when I came home the reality was still there waiting for me and the rain didn’t help aghh the English Summer! There are still daily struggles and challenges. For example my hubby, Ruck, was out and I wanted a strong espresso coffee which I have with a tiny bit of condensed milk for sweetness, but all I had was what had been in the fridge from before we went away so…..yep I risked it and used it because I couldn’t tell if it was off or not, but my tummy told me later that it definitly was. Hence quite a few trips to the bathroom that day, sorry too much information, but I was ok after a good clear out! Life can’t be that bad if I can joke about it sometimes I suppose!

So until next time ‘yassas’!