You know what? Sometimes I think…”right Debbie give the Anosmia a rest for a bit”. Even though I am a lot better these days, I feel the need to write something more than about my condition all the time.
Hence the new category ‘Random Ramblings’. On here I am going to write about whatever I want and I hope you will consider it worth a read!
So I’m going to talk about journaling, or writing a diary as they say in the UK. For a start I’m rubbish at it. A couple of days in and I’ve forgotten to write in it so there are these huge gaps, and instead of starting from the day I’ve actually remembered to dig it out, I try and think back to the last date I should have written in it and go from there.
Bad move, I have a memory like a sieve at the best of times so inevitably I end up making half of it up…as near as I can to the truth mind! Pretty diary isn’t it, what a shame its gathering dust!
I’m sure a lot of you are great at….mm should I call it journaling or writing a diary? How about we call it ‘journdiaring’. Actually saying that out loud doesn’t sound so good does it!
I am actually trying really hard to keep a ‘journdiary’ and when I sit down and focus, some of the things that come out of my brain and onto the paper are a revelation.
Like I’d like to fly away with geese….considering I cant fly and the geese probably wouldn’t enjoy my company anyway that could be a bit of an ask. But to clarify we have a field behind our garden, and in Autumn Greylag Geese gather in readiness to migrate. Its an amazing site to see so many of them in the field and then watch them all leaving in one honking bird feathering take off. Yes I know I have a way with words!But in all seriousness sometimes as I watch them disappear over the tree tops, I get this mad yearning that I want to go with them. Fly off to a different country and get away from the stresses and strains of everyday life. Only for a bit of course I’d come back eventually(These pictures may not be a photographers dream but considering I took them first thing in the morning still in my fluffy slippers and pygamas….no I’m not showing you a picture of that….they are acceptable to my eye anyway.)
It made me wonder as I looked at what I’d written did I want to fly away because I wanted to run away from something. That got me writing even more and I realised I wanted to flying to something, not away. To a better life, a better job, a more fulfilling existence.
The fact is as I sat there I knew only I could make that happen. I am truly lacking in self belief at the moment and this made me really sit up and take notice. I have to push on, start working on my future, a good future, and follow my dreams. Not away from them but to them, chase after them as fast as I can, catch them up and overtake them or even take them over.
Now that’s worth keep a ‘journdiary’ about!
Do you have dreams you are chasing, are you catching them up? Let me know in the comments below , (if you follow this blog). Otherwise please leave me a message on the ‘Contact’ page. I’d love to hear from you.